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To Own My Definition 

Wow. I don’t know where to begin with this. I feel like I have so much to say and yet so little. 

I’ve been asking myself and God some tough questions that have been bugging me; all surrounding the same issue. 
Why am I so restless and anxious every day? Is there a life that normal people have, different from mine? And can I have it? 

I think I’ve been looking for this life for a long time, wondering if it even exists. For years I’ve been trying to make the grand discovery of what I will be, and what I will be doing with my life. I thought wrongly that those labels would determine who I am. Doctor, Artist, Engineer. Those are nice labels but they aren’t “who” we are. They could be a part of who we are but we are defined by so much more.

I wish someone explained this to me a decade ago. But it’s okay because I get to look forward to a different chapter of my life, free from anxiety.

I know who I am, and I know some of what I can do, but the important thing is that I know who I am. And I can own who I am.

God has done in me what He does best; He has transformed me. This is beyond receiving quick answers to prayers.  It’s more like seeing the answer to your prayer unfold.

I feel like a rock. Solid. I’m no longer seeking my definition in labels. I am defined by who God has made me and is making me. I am a rock. And God is my Rock. I love it.

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Tag! I’m It.

 Not my ministry, not my work, not my relationship or marriage, not the movie I want to make, not the help I want to give, not the things I know, not the ideas I come up with, not all my good intentions.

It’s like we’re in a game of Tag, and God says to us “Tag! I’m it.” That’s not how the game is played we say. “It’s tag you’re it, so I’M it.” We say. Duh, God.

“An idol is whatever you look at and say in your heart of hearts, ‘If I have that, then I’ll feel my life has meaning, then I’ll know I have value, then I’ll feel significant and secure.” – Dannah Gresh and Dr. Juli Slattery (Pulling Back the Shades)
I said this quote over and over to myself before writing this post. My striving was exposed for what it was. I felt like I was watching a movie of my life plus the bloopers! I have made good things idols along the way. Some I recognized , and others I didn’t until now.

Can God fully and truly satisfy us minus all the other “good” things that we just must have? All the logical things that we just must have – that we are certain we need? Could we truly be satisfied?

The truth is I don’t have all the answers right now. But I hope to have the answers I need soon. My eyes feel like they’ve been opened. I had no idea that they were closed.

I’ve thought about Joseph. God gave him an amazing dream (two actually, but they were pointing to the same thing), but it took thirteen whole years experience what God had showed him long before. The dream was good – great even. I imagine what torture it could have been for Joseph if that’s all he thought about while being a slave and subsequently, a prisoner for a crime he didn’t commit?

How about Abraham? Father Abraham. God says to papa AB, “I’m going to give you a son. Like from your actual body.” He waits twenty-five years with his wife Sarah before that would ever happen. If all he ever thought about was having that child, what torture it would have been to wait without a set date? God didn’t tell him when. Not until a year before anyway.
God didn’t always tell people exactly when. Not Noah. Not David. He still doesn’t always tell us now. Wouldn’t it be torture if that’s all we thought about? When our God-given dreams would come true?

God doesn’t want us to look to any thing to fill us up. Even good things – especially good things – can become idols. God wants us to look to Him. He wants to be IT.

If I was really honest with myself, I would say that I would love to know what that’s like: A life of God completely satisfying.

I want to be full today. Always. Never wanting for anything. Come rain or sunshine. Through storms and stillness. To be truly full. Not ok. Not just ok.

I don’t want to strive anymore. I don’t want to push and claw through life. To have and have. I want my identity to be completely in Christ. My value, my significance, my happiness and joy, my peace, my hope, my adventures.

I know in my heart that the answer lies in saying, “Ok, God, Father…I give up. You be IT. Have it your way. I don’t like surprises but fine. Why don’t You decide where we’re going today? Why don’t You decide our activities today? You want me to go where?! Ok..? OK! I can do that. Do what?! Uhm..no problem. Wait? Err..sure. Anything You say is fine with me. I trust You with my life. You already gave me Yours. I’ve got absolutely everything to gain and nothing to lose if I realize that I’m not even mine.”

OK GOD. YESSS. I’M DOWN WITH WHATEVER. Yes, Lord, whatSOever.

Your turn.
 

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An Invitation to Fear

I wrote that heading to get your attention; I would much prefer to title this post, “An Invitation to Trust.”


Anyway…

We are constantly being spoken at, being pushed and pulled from all sides. Life with it’s devilish gifts makes us offers of multiple dimensions, hard to ignore. Loudest above all the noise of the throng is the invitation to fear, often written in the elaborate ink of fact, and possible fact.

Fears of many sizes: big fears, small fears, medium sized fears. 

Are they valid? Absolutely. Are they fact. Yes indeed. People die for no good reason. Lives are wasted everyday. I’m forced to believe in the futility of life. But…

But what is my hope? What did God say about me, and what does He still say?

“All the promises of God are yes and amen in Christ Jesus.” 1 Corinthians 1:20

“And I will be with you always to the close of age.” – Jesus Christ (Matthew 28:20)

I’m constantly tempted to fear. And who am I in the face of the tsunami of life, hitting again and again everything that I am and have, and everything I care about?

I am the Beloved of God, surrounded by the surest promises. Kept by the Lord. Shielded by His Spirit. Given every resource of heaven to make me victorious. “The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?” -Psalm 27:1

“[I] will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at [my] side, ten thousand at [my] right hand, but it will not come near [me].”‭‭ -Psalm‬ ‭91:5-7‬ ‭

And then I hear the voice of God sending out to me an invitation to trust. To believe in Him who made all things and in whom all things consist. The One that says “I am the Lord, is there anything too hard for me?” The God that calls me His own. The One who sent to die in my place, His only begotten Son. The One who loves me and gave Himself for me. 


He has made promises. We are not alone. Fear not. Fear NOT; words He says to us in His word so many times. And He still says now.

Jesus said, “Have faith in God.”- (Mark 11:22) Put your confidence in Him. Steadfastly trust in Him. Hold on to Him. Let go to Him. Ask Him and don’t give up asking. Seek Him. Hold on to His promises. Hold on to His word. Don’t let go.

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Certain Truths

I believe that at this time God is calling me into a new way of life. Whereas, previously, I was building the Tower of Babel, now, He wants me on the ground. He wants me to till, to plant, to water and to wait patiently for the harvest!

God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He is steady foundation that I can lean on. God is truth – there is no falseness in Him. He is light – in Him there is no darkness at all.

My Heavenly Father wants me to know that some things are certain: God, His love and His Word which is unshakeable truth.

I’ve been called to worship Him in spirit and in truth, in simple child-like faith, without ambition and without worry.

So many things look different to me now, and I’m rediscovering who God made me to be. By this I mean that He is opening my eyes to every needless weight my soul has borne so I can be as free as a bird to serve Him.

It’s all new to me. I fear stumbling, but God reminds me that some things are certain. God is unshakeable truth. God IS and that’s all that matters!

Amen.

Thank you LORD!

  

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Chill

CHILL. LET GO.

As in, let go.

I was reading a post from Chroniclesofakidnextdoor (you can read it here at: http://gracemusing.com/2015/05/14/3-ambitions-that-limits-freedom/) (forgive the typo) and he said the same thing! 😃 I’m obviously missing something and God is saying,

“Girl, take it easy- let it all go! Stop overthinking life. I’ve gaat this and you’ve gaat this! Live this life- I gave it to you to enjoy. Yes it has a lot of problems, trials and all, and yes I have prepared home for you, but while you’re here, chill. I promise you, there’s no reward in heaven for worrying. That’s it girlfriend. 😊”

Yes, God said that- do you have a problem with that? 😌 😄

I’ve been killing myself thinking I’m in an episode of Kill Yourself (don’t think there’s any show with that title-you never know). I’m glad that God has a sense of humor and isn’t out to teach me “the strange ways of the high order of whatchamacallit”.

When trials do come, He’ll equip me. He’ll have my back and He’ll make me stand. It’s alright and it’s going to be just fine-because God said it! (Not just because someone sang it😀)

This is a simple message, but I know it’s hard to grasp sometimes. It’s an art to live like that. Gotta learn it. I wish I could become it as easily as it says. But that’s it. It’s that simple. Our minds would fight it because it’s just not how we function. But it’s how He wants us to. I started this journey long ago, but it’s just right. We learn in small doses. 😊

Thank You, LORD, really. 😄

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Discovering Now

Hello lovely people! 😄 I really hope your days have been inwardly satisfying. If not, I pray you they will be (and soon!)

Just as a side note, this post is NOT about living for now. Just to clear things up. 😊

I was walking down to get the bus when I found myself noticing the way I felt just simply walking down the road. I was reminded of how far I had come from always rushing into “Tomorrow”- even “Today” was such a big burden to me. I thought to myself: Isn’t it so liberating to enjoy the things I have now and the things I experience now and today? Isn’t it liberating to stop living always reaching out for tomorrow? Always looking for the thing in tomorrow that would make today better?

My answer to myself was “YES”! Yes. Yes. Yes.

Now is beautiful. Now is the gift that God graciously gives to us. Now is what we have. 

I saw this quote by Sidonie Gabrielle Collette: “What a wonderful life I’ve had! I only wish I’d realized it sooner.”!

Amazing. 

I know that I’ve messed up and rushed myself into tomorrow without recognizing the life I had. But I’m glad because I still have a chance to think differently and see differently. I have the gift of now. This is not to say that now is full of good things always, but that there are good things in “Now” that we can appreciate and be thankful for.

I’m treasuring my “Nows” now. 😊 I’m treasuring my God-given gift. Now I can shout or whisper “Thank You Lord for Now.” I can think the thought and keep my mind uncluttered by the worries of tomorrow or even today. 

It’s not always easy. In fact it isn’t easy especially if you’re like me. But it’s beautiful for sure. 

Good luck guys! 😊

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About Those Plans

Where do I begin? Do I begin from the part where I realized that I had started to make things hard for myself? I guess I would.

I’ve been struggling with my thoughts, feeling guilty but still trying to justify them and trying to make Gods’s way fit into mine. But like the scriptures say, “God made man simple, but he has made himself more complicated.”

So then, it is simply this: “Love the LORD and do right.”

I don’t believe, like many seem to believe these days, that I could have a map of my life. I can’t measure the distance or discover the estimated time of arrival. I think this journey I’m on is actually more similar to a treasure hunt. At certain points, a clue is revealed and I know my immediate next step.

I’m fine with not being as competent as some seem to be, at describing the next twenty years of my life. My ideas always pale in comparison to what God has planned. My idea of the journey also may be too easy when He has a harder road for me to walk in.

I accept to be driven by my God and the passion(in different forms) that He has put in my heart. I DON’T WANT THE VERSIONS OF LIFE THAT I COME UP WITH. My own versions usually end up in the trash. I WANT, NEED, DESIRE, GOD’S PLAN FOR MY LIFE!

To the deep with my plans!!! 😀

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Experiencing

Thank You Precious Father. You are the author of my life- You are concerned even about the minute details of my life (yeah, You know the number of hairs on my head. 🙂 ).

I’m opening my heart wide to experiencing the events You orchestrate. Lord, You care, and I don’t have to worry. I just have to trust You one day, one step at a time.

Thank You LORD! 😀

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26 November 2014

26 November 2014

LORD, I want to truly live!
I want to really live. Help me appreciate what’s real around me and in my life. Please help me to recognize the gifts You have given me.
Please help me to embrace them fully, and not be afraid that I’m missing something. Help me to always remember that I’m not the architect of my life, but that YOU are.
Only YOU know the future. Help me to see more rather than grope for the unseen. Help me to love and trust You wholly. Help me to embrace silence and stillness. Help me to love every moment, and to show love every moment I can.
You know everything-I don’t. I want to know You LORD, because in the end, that’s what counts.
Please help me not to be afraid but to be naked and yet unashamed before You, Lord! Help me not to be afraid of what people think or say. Help me to care only about what You think and say, because my value is in You and in no one else.
I embrace Your freedom now. I choose not to be a captive of fear and of the world. I embrace Your freedom!
Thank You LORD!

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22 November 2014

22 November 2014

Thank You LORD. I’ve been wrong. I’ve been so wrong. I give up. I have no idea. I’ve made assumptions about the future. I realize that I really don’t know, but You do. You know everything, and that’s absolutely, 100 percent fine with me. I’m just going to sit back, relax and enjoy the ride. You’ve got this!

YOU’VE GAAT THIS!
Thank You LORD!