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Tag! I’m It.

 Not my ministry, not my work, not my relationship or marriage, not the movie I want to make, not the help I want to give, not the things I know, not the ideas I come up with, not all my good intentions.

It’s like we’re in a game of Tag, and God says to us “Tag! I’m it.” That’s not how the game is played we say. “It’s tag you’re it, so I’M it.” We say. Duh, God.

“An idol is whatever you look at and say in your heart of hearts, ‘If I have that, then I’ll feel my life has meaning, then I’ll know I have value, then I’ll feel significant and secure.” – Dannah Gresh and Dr. Juli Slattery (Pulling Back the Shades)
I said this quote over and over to myself before writing this post. My striving was exposed for what it was. I felt like I was watching a movie of my life plus the bloopers! I have made good things idols along the way. Some I recognized , and others I didn’t until now.

Can God fully and truly satisfy us minus all the other “good” things that we just must have? All the logical things that we just must have – that we are certain we need? Could we truly be satisfied?

The truth is I don’t have all the answers right now. But I hope to have the answers I need soon. My eyes feel like they’ve been opened. I had no idea that they were closed.

I’ve thought about Joseph. God gave him an amazing dream (two actually, but they were pointing to the same thing), but it took thirteen whole years experience what God had showed him long before. The dream was good – great even. I imagine what torture it could have been for Joseph if that’s all he thought about while being a slave and subsequently, a prisoner for a crime he didn’t commit?

How about Abraham? Father Abraham. God says to papa AB, “I’m going to give you a son. Like from your actual body.” He waits twenty-five years with his wife Sarah before that would ever happen. If all he ever thought about was having that child, what torture it would have been to wait without a set date? God didn’t tell him when. Not until a year before anyway.
God didn’t always tell people exactly when. Not Noah. Not David. He still doesn’t always tell us now. Wouldn’t it be torture if that’s all we thought about? When our God-given dreams would come true?

God doesn’t want us to look to any thing to fill us up. Even good things – especially good things – can become idols. God wants us to look to Him. He wants to be IT.

If I was really honest with myself, I would say that I would love to know what that’s like: A life of God completely satisfying.

I want to be full today. Always. Never wanting for anything. Come rain or sunshine. Through storms and stillness. To be truly full. Not ok. Not just ok.

I don’t want to strive anymore. I don’t want to push and claw through life. To have and have. I want my identity to be completely in Christ. My value, my significance, my happiness and joy, my peace, my hope, my adventures.

I know in my heart that the answer lies in saying, “Ok, God, Father…I give up. You be IT. Have it your way. I don’t like surprises but fine. Why don’t You decide where we’re going today? Why don’t You decide our activities today? You want me to go where?! Ok..? OK! I can do that. Do what?! problem. Wait? Err..sure. Anything You say is fine with me. I trust You with my life. You already gave me Yours. I’ve got absolutely everything to gain and nothing to lose if I realize that I’m not even mine.”


Your turn.

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Certain Truths

I believe that at this time God is calling me into a new way of life. Whereas, previously, I was building the Tower of Babel, now, He wants me on the ground. He wants me to till, to plant, to water and to wait patiently for the harvest!

God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He is steady foundation that I can lean on. God is truth – there is no falseness in Him. He is light – in Him there is no darkness at all.

My Heavenly Father wants me to know that some things are certain: God, His love and His Word which is unshakeable truth.

I’ve been called to worship Him in spirit and in truth, in simple child-like faith, without ambition and without worry.

So many things look different to me now, and I’m rediscovering who God made me to be. By this I mean that He is opening my eyes to every needless weight my soul has borne so I can be as free as a bird to serve Him.

It’s all new to me. I fear stumbling, but God reminds me that some things are certain. God is unshakeable truth. God IS and that’s all that matters!


Thank you LORD!


Faith · Inspiration · Spiritual

Lose. Gain. Win.

“For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his own soul?” (Matthew 16:26a)

“For whosoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whosoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” (Matthew 16:25)

Lord, I believe You’re asking me to really look at my life right now. I believe You’re asking me to choose. I see that I can’t serve two masters at a time; I cannot give in part.

I choose to surrender it all.

You say that I’ll be judged by my works. Please let my works reflect a life “lost” for Your sake. Amen.

Thank You Lord. I choose YOU! 😀


4 December 2014 Deep and Meaningful

4 December 2014 Deep and Meaningful

God just gave me a clearer picture of what ministry should mean to me. I’m learning that doing things in a big way isn’t equivalent to doing ministry the right way. I realize that the “go big or go home” mentality is actually a myopic view of how God wants to use us.

He’s showing me in what ways I can be light in the lives of other people.
The small but deep and real connections I make with people would go a long way in causing a ripple effect in the world in the direction of God’s heart more than large and shallow connections can sometimes.

This being said, I look forward to life –a life filled with a lot of these kinds of meaningful connections.
Thank You LORD!


26 November 2014

26 November 2014

LORD, I want to truly live!
I want to really live. Help me appreciate what’s real around me and in my life. Please help me to recognize the gifts You have given me.
Please help me to embrace them fully, and not be afraid that I’m missing something. Help me to always remember that I’m not the architect of my life, but that YOU are.
Only YOU know the future. Help me to see more rather than grope for the unseen. Help me to love and trust You wholly. Help me to embrace silence and stillness. Help me to love every moment, and to show love every moment I can.
You know everything-I don’t. I want to know You LORD, because in the end, that’s what counts.
Please help me not to be afraid but to be naked and yet unashamed before You, Lord! Help me not to be afraid of what people think or say. Help me to care only about what You think and say, because my value is in You and in no one else.
I embrace Your freedom now. I choose not to be a captive of fear and of the world. I embrace Your freedom!
Thank You LORD!

Life Hacks

5 October 2014 On Being Fruitful

5 October 2014

I believe that God is asking me to take whatever time I have in the present and be fruitful.

I’ve tried to figure things out all at once, but I gained only frustration because I really can only see so far.

It is a mystery to me to live my life “in the moment”, not worrying about tomorrow or the day after (I’m usually more likely to worry about the next couple of years when I don’t exercise self-control  🙂 ).

Time- the time I have today, now, is a gift from God. In this day, He is ever ready to fill my ears with guidance. He is ever ready to equip me and give me clarity as I follow Him TODAY.

I sigh knowing that this is easier said than done, but God is with me.  🙂

Thank You LORD!