Wow. I don’t know where to begin with this. I feel like I have so much to say and yet so little.
I’ve been asking myself and God some tough questions that have been bugging me; all surrounding the same issue.
Why am I so restless and anxious every day? Is there a life that normal people have, different from mine? And can I have it?
I think I’ve been looking for this life for a long time, wondering if it even exists. For years I’ve been trying to make the grand discovery of what I will be, and what I will be doing with my life. I thought wrongly that those labels would determine who I am. Doctor, Artist, Engineer. Those are nice labels but they aren’t “who” we are. They could be a part of who we are but we are defined by so much more.
I wish someone explained this to me a decade ago. But it’s okay because I get to look forward to a different chapter of my life, free from anxiety.
I know who I am, and I know some of what I can do, but the important thing is that I know who I am. And I can own who I am.
God has done in me what He does best; He has transformed me. This is beyond receiving quick answers to prayers. It’s more like seeing the answer to your prayer unfold.
I feel like a rock. Solid. I’m no longer seeking my definition in labels. I am defined by who God has made me and is making me. I am a rock. And God is my Rock. I love it.